Living Life Large :)

As this topic makes me so anxious to write more. For example, what would be an average school goer's wish to live his/her life in this modern era? Having a luxury apartment with all updated e-gadgets (from Wii Nintendo, ipad, iphone to latest laptop) and handful of money for well spending. Every one look at others way of living, adore them and wish to live their (others) life. Apparently, donning different colours on ourselves, trying variety of new things (right from changing the food habit, dressing, hurting others personal sentiments etc...), which makes more awful both in physical appearance and mental thoughts. First, Deserve and then desire. Second, one has to analyze and organize themselves and make out what suits them the best and how to carry themselves etc. Living life large doesn't only mean to have all luxury at home or where ever they go, it also mean how comfort when they move and be social with others. That matters a lot. We all notice only the spending alone, not even mind to think how much hard work one has to put, to earn this money by compromising his/her personal values or respect. Nowadays, in the name of globalization, people tend to live an unhealthy and pitiable life. For a matter of showing off, they started going out and spending lavishly, having sumptuous food and attire, hiding their disability in many ways, pretending to be so generous towards social cause, makes their life so miserable. I personally think that these people are sick mentally and super bug doesn't make the society sick, only these morons does!!! By doing it so, every one lacks their identity and they losing their personal reverence too. Perception differs, as far as I am concerned, living a life large could be in our hands to make it more happier than other influences (money and other forms of wealth). Doing what we like and enjoy doing that job will give you mental happiness which is more than anything in the world. Small acknowledgement and little appreciation for your work gives you what you could yearn for your whole life. Mentally matured and at the end of every day being happy themselves and making others happy would be a worth mentioning life. For every one, at some point of time in their life, there would be a tug-of-war between money and happiness, it always depends on which one we can choose to make our life bigger, brighter and more colourful!!!

Betrayal.....

Betrayal - act of untrustworthiness. From birth till death, almost every human being has been betrayed in various ways. It either can be done for money or other benefits. We can see this act in business, politics, education, sports and even in personal life. It will take years to build up the trust, whereas one act of distrust will take a second to spoil every thing. We must always look onto the point in two angles (in fact, as many angles as possible). The person who got betrayed will not necessarily be a nerd to get deceived always. At the same time, the perpetrator who has got a solid reason to do this, would be for the sake of money and fame which he cannot possess by his individuality. Apart from money and other luxuries they attain as a physical enjoyment, they lack mental comfort or happiness. The victim would be suffering psychological trauma, which nobody would even mind to think of. But when it happens to them, they will curse the rest of the world for their loss. Leave all the external part, how would one feel if he/she comes to know that they have got betrayed in any means. That moment would be like a thorn always pricks his/her heart forever. Even worse if they had been betrayed by their loved one's. People don't really understand how it pains, when they make others cry, unless they suffer. I am also a victim for this and I've been betrayed many times till today, even by my close buddies. I am not an exception. I feel sorry for my ignorance and I knew the pain of betrayal. After one such event, I can't even ready to forgive and digest what I've undergone. This happened to me in the recent past in Oxford itself. When you are not ready to keep up the promise, don't pretend to be a loyal friend. If you don't really mean, then don't give promise. I've a bad habit of believe every one as my good friend. Its very hard to judge one person even after you have been with them for long time. You cannot find out their true colour. People think they are smart and clever enough to dump other. They cannot think of the consequences, which other faces because of their cheap activities. It will be the worst pain when your body and heart being active, while your mind deprived of oxygen to think of anything else. You can tolerate only for some time, every body will have their own level of tolerance and patience. You cannot except how bad one would react when they came to know the fact. In fact, I'll go crazy when I came to know that I've been fooled around. People who have done this to me are still in my vicinity, gave me a mental pain, making problems with other friends. I really don't know what they have gained by doing it so. At last, they have been thrown away from my house because of their cheap behaviour and I consider them as a third rated morons or thrash can who I can't even imagine to suit my state of dignity. I felt ashamed for being with them long back. They were fabricating stories and spreading wrong words, which I don't care. Later I felt its a waste of time to think about those issues and sort of people. Finally, its up to each individual to think about their duty and keep up their promise as being loyal and trust worthy friend to every one!

What Destiny has in store for me???

Hi to myself and all... Its been a long gap since I pen down my last post.. Actually, there was nothing much or interested happened in life to put on words. Then you can ask me what made me to write today? that's a good question. It started like this... as usual today (Saturday, so people used to spend their wages on clubs and restaurants) was pretty busy going at Domino's till half nine, then there was a slog... Deyan (Manager) started sending people home... Me and Waheeda (new friend of mine) were busy discussing about in store people. As the conversation goes long, another good friend of mine Dr. Mahesh has also joined hands with us. You may wonder what doctor is doing at Domino's or am I misspelt him as doctor. Certainly, the word doctor made me to write today. When I introduce Mahesh to Waheeda, who is new to our store, I addressed him as doctor, as he is. Then we started talking about our destiny. There hits my mind.. What's my destiny will be? or what it has in store for me? So, I thought of writing about my own unknown destiny here. It remains as an undefined mystery yet. After having a good high class education at alien land, struggling to pick up one good, professional job and thinking of a terrible surgery back home few months ago.. my natal chart seriously looks horrible for me for almost an year till now.. I am afraid that all the planets are going in Brownian Motion as stated by Robert Brown (a Scottish Botanist) ages back. What is the purpose of my life? Why am I here? There is no answer for me to these questions. I always used to say PASS to these sort of issues, when ever it hit my mind millions times before and eat my mind like an anxiety disorder. But now, its a high time for me to take some necessary action to put all my planets together aligned at one place and make a proper movement. Things will always seem to be so complicated when it happens and we may feel nervous or in dilemma to take good decision while it is happening or going through.. but later, the same thing was seem to be so simple after it has happened, whether the end product will be an innovative creation or may be a most disastrous crap. Like that I don't really know what decision am I going to take for my life's progress right at the moment. Hopefully I should not regret for what I am doing now, keeping my fingers crossed for an unopened chapter of my life. As I was scribbling this at twelve in the midnight, my mom was calling from India (it was half five in the morning... as they are in the other pole of the earth, the sun used to come out so early to wake up the people from their bed, which never comes on time here at so called ENGLAND and people here used to take much pride to describe this as British Weather) to say that, an important star (which is responsible for job & good health) on my birth chart is migrating from one place to other, so that he can do some favour for me to put every thing straight and makes me more focussed on my profession. After hearing this, how could one be there by not believing in his own natus or destiny? Wish and hope that, my natus will have loads of good in store for me and for all my friends either :):):)